*takes a deep breath*

oh my god, junior year is finally over!
I just took my last exam this morning, and it hasn't really hit me yet that I only have one more year left at high school.
I passed all my exams (not exactly all with flying colors, but hey, the final semester grades are all pretty acceptable!)
I'm officially a senior, and that's also a really crazy thought! All of my good senior friends are graduating and I'm going to cry like a literal child at their graduation. I have no idea what theatre will be like next year without my fav seniors.
I'm really excited for this summer, though. I have a lot of stuff going on, like going to my arts program, making art with photography to get ready for AP Art next year as a senior, and going to Montreal as much as I can, and maybe even Toronto to visit schools there.
I feel really refreshed and relieved that I can finally take a breath and go out and do things that I wanna do. I want to experiment a lot with my photography this summer and try to manipulate my pictures after they've been printed either in the darkroom or digitally by painting or drawing on them. I just feel like this summer is going to be filled with the good kind of busy. The kind where I'll have the choice to fill up this time with learning experiences and expressing myself. This is my last summer where I'll be going back to the same school as all my friends in the fall, and I want to grow as much as I can.
I hope to post here more and use this space to record my adventures along the way of this summer and all of the fun stuff I should be doing with all my best friends and myself.

Summer 2015! (let me have this cliché)
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the end of the beginning

okay, I know, everything's a vent post these days, and I've barley posted this month, but what else is a junior in high school supposed to do besides cut out anything that might bring joy to their consistent stress-con ??
As the end of my junior year of high school approaches, various important tests seem to pop up every other day (taking the SATS in like 7 days lol) (not ready). In my genius way of handling this, I've been a blob of nothing who does nothing (literally nothing) but watch netflix and mope about, getting paler by the day, avoiding all reasonable responsibility. It's not even that bad really, for me. I don't have a job at the moment (or a car, it broke down, its supposed to be ready tomorrow, but god knows my father will haggle at the price with the guy and make things more fun), or any sports or big-time commitments. As I've mentioned in earlier posts, its just the impending deadlines and life stuff happening all the time.

ANYWAY, I'm really going to try and stop complaining here.

My prom was totally last weekend, and although my night turned into a hot, sticky mess, I def enjoyed the photo-ops and how confident I felt about myself that night (40 minutes in front of the mirror, putting goop on your face meticulously has that effect on me) heres some super-teenage prom pics for you to enjoy.

me and my bf!!!

me and my bf again 

jus me

pals (this is snapchat so it sucks sorry)

more pals

main prom selfie

fashionable at prom

Here are some crappy school lighting iPhone camera-app scans of the pictures I took of Katie while I was in Montreal last.

i had an extra sheet of paper so i did this one on a whim so its not as good #judgementfreezone

contour/cheekbones on fleek

KT doin her makeup thang..this one is my fav.. i had to burn & dodge it like a PRO 

I'm going to Montreal again for another weekend visit in mid-June. I'm taking some of my American friends this time and hopefully they'll get to meet some Canadians.

I honestly attempted to film a makeup tutorial yesterday but it was all overexposed and you couldn't even see what was going on my face, so maybe I'll try that again later. I've been wanting to try and get a little bit more involved in youtube because I've gotten so obsessed with so many different youtubers lately, but I'm just not sure I have what it takes. I'm also a really busy student so I'm not sure if I would have time (especially this upcoming fall) to keep a channel updated with edited videos all the time. Plus, I'm not totally sure what I would film about. I'm not loaded enough to be filming makeup and fashion hauls all the time. I'll give it a go in the summertime if I'm feeling the boredom one day.
I'm thinking my next post will finally be something cute & fun, like my spring/summer fashion built around what I might be doing with the day. stay tuned for that, I promise now that summer is just around the corner I will have more interesting/cheerful posts. My fellow juniors know this pain. Lets stick together, we can do it! not crying at all right now

making it through may

I'm sorry I haven't been so active. It's just that I'm a second-semester Junior and I kind of feel like my body  is going to explode, just combust into ashes every time I get assigned more work or reminded of the work I have left to do. I feel sort of creatively dead. I keep meaning to write here, or even just jot some ideas down in a notebook. When I get stressed out, I just try not to feel it by pretending my responsibilities aren't happening and I just shut down and do something totally unproductive, like watching Scandal for 5 hours straight. I know this is starting to sound a lot like my last post, but it's not, I just wanted to get that out before I shared a few things that have been getting me through the past few weeks, and what will hopefully keep me afloat for the next month or so.

I just mentioned Scandal. I've been binge-watching it this week, and I've really gotten into it. I can't give away any spoilers, but its just dope.

I've also been reading Cinder by Marissa Meyer (rather slowly, I might add). I'm still not incredibly far into it, but it's nice to be reading something that I have to constantly analyze to understand for school. It's about a cyborg girl in the distant future living in what I presume is China. It's basically a super futuristic, dystopian Cinderella story. It's an on-trend plot for teen books right now, which I've somewhat been sucked into. Defs recommend.

My Steve Madden Birkenstock-style sandals. They're SO comfortable and I can wear cool socks with them ironically. I've been living in them in this super-warm weather and totally obsessing with this semi-ugly-sandal trend that was sort of more last summer. I'm clinging on guys. Let me live.

The Anastasia DipBrow Pomade. Enough said. I love the flickadawris.

I've been listening to a lot of Disney movie soundtracks. Like Disney Princess movies. My friends hate it because its all I want to bump in the car. I'm retreating to childhood so I can pretend I'm not actually mere months away from going to college is my phsyc analysis.

EssieButton's channel . She's just so sweet and genuine. Adding her to my subscription list was an easy choice and I really like watching her makeup videos and then her bookshelf videos. She's just living in London & being cool & cute. Love it.

That's all for now