the end of the beginning

okay, I know, everything's a vent post these days, and I've barley posted this month, but what else is a junior in high school supposed to do besides cut out anything that might bring joy to their consistent stress-con ??
As the end of my junior year of high school approaches, various important tests seem to pop up every other day (taking the SATS in like 7 days lol) (not ready). In my genius way of handling this, I've been a blob of nothing who does nothing (literally nothing) but watch netflix and mope about, getting paler by the day, avoiding all reasonable responsibility. It's not even that bad really, for me. I don't have a job at the moment (or a car, it broke down, its supposed to be ready tomorrow, but god knows my father will haggle at the price with the guy and make things more fun), or any sports or big-time commitments. As I've mentioned in earlier posts, its just the impending deadlines and life stuff happening all the time.

ANYWAY, I'm really going to try and stop complaining here.

My prom was totally last weekend, and although my night turned into a hot, sticky mess, I def enjoyed the photo-ops and how confident I felt about myself that night (40 minutes in front of the mirror, putting goop on your face meticulously has that effect on me) heres some super-teenage prom pics for you to enjoy.

me and my bf!!!

me and my bf again 

jus me

pals (this is snapchat so it sucks sorry)

more pals

main prom selfie

fashionable at prom

Here are some crappy school lighting iPhone camera-app scans of the pictures I took of Katie while I was in Montreal last.

i had an extra sheet of paper so i did this one on a whim so its not as good #judgementfreezone

contour/cheekbones on fleek

KT doin her makeup thang..this one is my fav.. i had to burn & dodge it like a PRO 

I'm going to Montreal again for another weekend visit in mid-June. I'm taking some of my American friends this time and hopefully they'll get to meet some Canadians.

I honestly attempted to film a makeup tutorial yesterday but it was all overexposed and you couldn't even see what was going on my face, so maybe I'll try that again later. I've been wanting to try and get a little bit more involved in youtube because I've gotten so obsessed with so many different youtubers lately, but I'm just not sure I have what it takes. I'm also a really busy student so I'm not sure if I would have time (especially this upcoming fall) to keep a channel updated with edited videos all the time. Plus, I'm not totally sure what I would film about. I'm not loaded enough to be filming makeup and fashion hauls all the time. I'll give it a go in the summertime if I'm feeling the boredom one day.
I'm thinking my next post will finally be something cute & fun, like my spring/summer fashion built around what I might be doing with the day. stay tuned for that, I promise now that summer is just around the corner I will have more interesting/cheerful posts. My fellow juniors know this pain. Lets stick together, we can do it! not crying at all right now

for the first time in forever

So I took a much-needed visit to my Montreal to see friends and get out of the boring small-town life for a few days. I put in some mad effort towards my outfits and makeup to strut around shopping with my Canadian hunny Katie.
Unfortunately, we had to leave a day early because my travel partner (Mom) forgot some important meds and I was feeling pretty under the weather myself (currently lying in bed for the 7th hour rn)
I took a ton of film pictures which should be done by next week sometime if I actually don't procrastinate. They're mostly all of Katie and maybe one or two of Grace just before I left.

we tried to take as many selfies as possible between shopping excursions  

katie & sarah mirror duo

trying stuff on at American Apparel, lowkey hoping they'd ask me to model for them, but alas, no.

klassic katie

showcasing my immense facial effort

view from my father's less-than glamorous 9th floor apartment. yes I shot this from a mattress on the floor. no bed for him. my father is a caveman. i did not sleep.

pretty good view tho

I did some pretty serious shopping while I was there, I hit up Topshop alone while I was waiting for Grace (we only had one lunch date since I had to leave early and I'm mad about that bc i love that bitch). I got some more unnecessary black high waisted pants (they were reasonably priced and they were like a black version of the american apparel easy jean, ok???) and some adorable socks, and this gorgeous powder blue crop top. i vow to not be afraid of rockin some crop this summer.

it looks sort of grey here and that upsets me because it really the most gorg powder blue color you've ever seen.

I would show you the pants if I knew how, they're just basic black high-waisted pants from Topshop.
I also copped that recently very popular American Apparel Julliard top in this amazing baby pink color. Its really flattering on me and I'm obsessed with it.
At Sephora I grabbed the Kat Von tattoo liner since I heard some great things about it, and the Anastasia Brow Pomade because Katie had it, and I used it, and the rest is history. Additionally, I grabbed the Rimmel Wake Me Up foundation and concealer while I was there, because its one of my favorite foundations/concealers of all time and it's only available in Canada in North America. I got them in London when I went in September (when I was slightly more tan, sigh), and I rationed it, not knowing when I would get another one. I finally got some more in my current skintone, and now I can use that one I got in London once the sun/self tanner comes out to play. I highly recommend you pick those up if you're near a Canadian/European drug store anytime soon.

This was a much needed visit out of Stowe, and I my hopes have been somewhat raised about going to Uni here in a bigger Canadian city since it would actually be affordable for me. We're working on some dual-citizen stuff, so hopefully Canadian school would work. McGill is close to my heart if you know me, since my father is a professor there, so that would be lovely, if I got in that is. Montreal is a beaaaautiful city that I've been visiting my whole life because of my father's job and our friends there. It's wonderful to be considering it for my future, because its a reasonably large city that isn't too overwhelmingly huge like NYC, yet there is still a sense of community. It's also wonderfully cultured with all sorts of different kinds of people, which I find wonderful, since I've grown up in such isolated towns without much variation in people.
It's only about 2 /2.5 hours away from where I live, and I hope to visit loads more during the summer to see my friends there, because I definitely don't see them enough, and they're amazing people that I love. I can't wait to go back!